Rose said

I feel like I'm standing in a crowded room and screaming.

Screeching in despair.

Yelling my rage.

It's ignored. 

No one looks up.

Nightmare of hell.

How many times do I need to explode, blatantly stating,

It's not, this is not, I'm not,

Okay.

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