And Now We Wait

Everyone has it

Everyone

So now 

I sit here

Waiting

Wondering

Planning

Unplanning

Stewing

Fearing

Am I next

So much 

Anger

Resentment

Towards family

And employers

I was so good

I listened

For two years

Twenty-four months

For what

Why

Playing 

The worst case scenario 

Game

I look at the couch

My beloved pets

Nervous

Defeated but

Slightly hopeful

What is

This reality