Author of the novel WHEN YOU LOSE CONTROL

This blog will take a brief hiatus for the holiday. 

There's not a lot of autistic female representation. Finally, having someone to look up to, someone who went through eerily similar things to you is so strangely and wonderfully freeing. I wouldn't want anyone to go through what I did as a kid, but having some solidarity and understanding is incredible. I feel so seen and validated.  I'm so thrilled and grateful that, due to my splendid boyfriend and his lovely daughter, I had the pleasure of seeing and meeting Fern Brady. She was hilarious on stage (obviously) and kind enough to chat with fans after the show. She signed my book, and I teared up as I thanked her for writing it. Thank you for being you, Fern. Thank you for what needed to be said. 

Not this vile, nasty thing again. Make it go away.  Rusty, crunchy leaves splitter across the road, looking like chipmunks. 

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"On November 13, Felix Unger was asked to remove himself from his place of residence. That request came from his wife. Deep down, he knew she was right, but he also knew that someday, he would return to her. With nowhere else to go, he appeared at the home of his childhood friend, Oscar Madison. Several years earlier, Madison's wife had thrown him out, requesting that he never return. Can two divorced men share an apartment without driving each other crazy?" -The Odd Couple 

"I don't know what it is like to not have deep emotions. Even when I feel nothing, I feel it completely."  -Sylvia Plath.

The entitled driving in these postcode-envy towns is vile. The pricier the car, the worse the overprivileged driver is.  You do not have special driving privileges because you're overpaid. 

Please read Strong Female Character by the amazing Fern Brady, especially if you're a woman diagnosed late in life with ASD. I'm only 109 pages in, and I have never felt so seen or so understood. She grew up in Scotland, I grew up in America, but we had almost identical issues and went through very similar things. This book is powerful, and I hope it comforts others the way it's comforting me. Thank you, Fern! 

In 51 days, Christmas will be over, and we'll be safe from the hideous red and green decorations, garishly awful songs, pretend charity, and all-around bullshittery for about ten months. It's the most annoying and fake time of year. And the coldest. I don't understand why people crave this saccharine stupidity. 

With anxiety, hiding in a bathroom can be the norm.  How many white pills will it take to feel okay? Anxious is the monkey on my back, fixture for life.

Yes, I'm sure. I've never been more sure of anything.  I clean the boxes, but kitty doesn't prefer my petting.  Almost everything and everyone I love is within one block.